"Viggo!"
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I always have an obsession with older guy. and cleft chin. When my friends were busily falling in love with Legolas in LOTR, I was stalking Elrond (Elrond! not Hugo Weaving or Agent Smith ok). Now, two years after ROTK premiere, I found myself falling in love with Viggo (the scruffy ranger). Not Aragon or Walker Jerome or Frank Hopkin or David Shaw (this is more like falling in lust!). I like the image he presented to the world. I like the fact that he could lie in an interview and told the next interviewer that he did that because he was bored. This is the guy who practically get away with anything cause he is who he is. The fact that he's drop dead gorgeous, established photographer, write poetry and own a left wing publishing house keep my interest intact for almost a year now. And he doesn't parade his personal life. And he's old (48 this yr). I always like old guys! and Buckethead like him! I figure he might be one hell of a character if Buckethead could like him.
ps: If you don't know who Buckethead is.. just google his name. Malas nak explain.::
.:Heidi Jones blogged on 5:01 PM:.
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"Found this on the net.. don't know why but it strike something in my heart.."
::COMMUNION
1.
WE'VE LEFT SHORE SOMEHOW
BECOME THE FRIENDS
OF EARLY THEORY
CLOSE ENOUGH TO SPEAK
DESIRE AND PAIN OF ABSENCE
OF MISTAKES WE'D MAKE
GIVEN THE CHANCE.
EACH SMILE RETURNED
MAKES HARDER AVOIDING
DREAMS THAT SEE US
LYING IN EARLY EVENING
CURTAIN SHADOWS, SKIN
SAFE AGAINST SKIN.
BLOOM OF COMPASSION
RESPECT FOR MOMENTS
EYES LOCK TURNS
FOREVER INTO ONE MORE
VEIL THAT FALLS AWAY.
2.
THIS AFTER SEEING YOU
LAST NIGHT, FIRST TIME
SMELLING YOU WITH
PERMISSION: SHOULDERS TO
WONDER OPENLY AT
AS CAREFULLY KISSED
AS THOSE ARMS
WAITED IMPOSSIBLY ON.
THEY'VE HELD ME NOW
AND YOUR BREATH
DOWN MY BACK
SENT AWAY NIGHT AIR
THAT HAD ME SHAKING
IN THE UNLIT ANGLICAN
DOORWAY.
3.
ARE WE RUINED FOR
FINDING OUR FACES FIT
AND WANT TO KNOW MORE
ABOUT MORNING? IS
FRIENDSHIP CANCELLED
IF WE CAN'T CALL
EACH OTHER ANYMORE
IN AMNESIA, INVITE
OURSELVES TO LAST GLANCES
UNDER SUSPICIOUS CLOCKS
TELLING US WHEN WE'VE
HAD ENOUGH?
4.
YOUR STEADY HANDS
CRADLING MY GRATEFUL
SKULL: WERE YOU TAKING
IN MY FACE TO
SAVE AN IMAGE
YOU'VE RARELY ALLOWED
YOURSELF AFTER LEAVING
THAT COLD ALCOVE?
AM I A PHOTOGRAPH
YOU GAZE AT IN
MOMENTS OF WEAKNESS?
YOU ORDERED ME
OFF MY KNEES
INTO YOUR ARMS.
WASN'T TO BEG
THAT I KNELT; ONLY
TO SEE YOU ONCE
FROM BELOW.
TRIED TO SAY SOMETHING
THAT FILLED MY MOUTH
AND LONGED TO REST
IN YOUR EAR.
DON'T DARE WRITE IT DOWN FOR FEAR IT'LL
BECOME WORDS, JUST
WORDS.
VIGGO MORTENSEN
(1999-2002)::
.:Heidi Jones blogged on 7:03 PM:.
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"my fucked up conversation with anim"
::Anim msg me tru msn yesterday. The conversation started with the "selamat hari raya" stuff "whatcha doing/eating stuff" to my new fascination with Viggo Mortensen and degenerated into my porn collection, pashing girls, sexy old men and hating Russel Crowe (and his 'not that good' movies). We also talked about how traumatizing would it be for Bayah if she discovered my aforementioned 'collection'. We talked about commitment phobe syndrom, David Cronenberg and the fact that neither of us is innocent (despite the deceptive appearance)
how on earth we end up discussing all those stuff??
p/s anim, if u are reading this.. let's ditch everything and go hitch hiking across europe. This time leave Bayah at home. She might force us to bath everyday if she tag along.::
.:Heidi Jones blogged on 11:19 PM:.
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"too many of everything and not much of anything"
::Found this on bergie 's blog
"Being brave is loving someone unconditionally, and not expecting anything in return"
rite now I think I am being the bravest woman alive. Tho secretly I am glad that thing does not turn out the way I initially wanted it to be. I spend the last couple of day replaying our friendship for the last 7 years, every conversations, sms, emails and msn and I think that what he love (d?) is just a shadow and a thought of what I used to be. I am no longer the happy go lucky girl who once painted his face with lipstick.. too many things happened, too many dissappointments, too many failures.. too many of everything and not much of anything..
Azrul once said to me.. "I don't want you to be like me, 26 and bitter" well now I am just like him, it just happened one year earlier.::
.:Heidi Jones blogged on 6:54 AM:.
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"insert catchy phrase here"
::I've been surfing the web for a few days.. looking for something new.. when I stumbled upon this one website showcasing a guy with a bloody intense stare.. at first I wonder who d hell is this guy when suddenly it hit me! BLOODY HELL! MR MORTENSEN is so damn HOT!! It's Viggo Mortensen! I am in love already.. I even like his grey hair.
haha this just reconfirm that I always like old guys.. hehe::
.:Heidi Jones blogged on 9:15 AM:.
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"raye... raye......"
::I just came back from celebrating raye with those budak2 undergrads... kenyang makan rendang, satay, n all those trapping.. banyak betul mase budak2 nie masak. anyway me, ayu, azzah and amalia were a bit subdued.. ye aa.. kitorang nie dah tua.. mane ade energy nak celebrate raye cam bebudak tu.. for once I am glad that my raye this year is without little kids.
I still remember last year during kenduri or samting at my house, syahmi was belting some song (or maybe he just yelled at the top of his lung) and everybody think it was charming, kiut, adorable.. yada yada.. but not me. I felt like strangling him! I end up walking around with a blinding headaches that day.
little kids and me are just not compatibles.::
.:Heidi Jones blogged on 10:09 PM:.
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"blogging again... since banyak sgt mase"
::1. Ian still keep a desk for me in the office. He's hopping that I'll be available for work again. Very nice of him
2. Saw UTP's new mosque in the website. It's so unfair because I am not there anymore.
3. Decide that I wanna go to Melbourne Uni for my phd.. still australia. or maybe I'll consider NZ..
4. Pray that the experiment will go without hitch today
5. Not fasting but I am hungry
6. Ben Hisham is reading about Real Madrid in arabic. I could see his computer from my place
7. the lab is full with undergrads student
8. I am sleepy
9. I have a headaches
10. I need to go to the loo::
.:Heidi Jones blogged on 1:24 PM:.
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"wah!! updating again.."
::I am already celebrating hari raye.. assuming that the actual eid would be on Wednesday.. I'll have to ganti my puase for like 3+4+ 3. the extra 3 days are for the day that I think I forget to niat puase the nite before and for the two days I spend sucking out chemical and blowing pipette. rite now I am bloody tired and I have a blinding headaches
so why am I updating my blog? because... since Dr. Shi is back, Tom cannot help me doing the ICP thingy and I have to wait until 2.30 pm because he's to busy doing whatnot. and since I came to meet Dr. Shi at 11 .. I am now stuck in the lab reading every kind of blogs and gay erotica. I probably should go back and sleep off my headaches but I knew in my heart that if I go back home and sleep, I would never manage to meet that guy at 2.30.. so I just stay here abusing lab equipment.
speaking about gay people.. last week during Kyle and Jackie O show.. one of the DJ get proposed by his boyfriend live. Intan's, Dilott's and syu's reaction were like... eww geli geli.. while I kinda think waa sweet nye. I wish my boyfriend would do that! after that somehow I feel like I am giving the wrong kind of reaction. I would never accept same sex relationship. If I am back in Malaysia (who claim to be a muslim country) I definitely would think that their behaviour is repulsive (it's also a breach of law to be a gay or be in a same-sex relationship or engage in same-sex activity in Malaysia). I also cannot accept if the person who engage in an same-sex relationship professed to be a muslim (or worse a devout one) no matter where or which country they live. If you claim to be a muslim, don't do it. It's not acceptable and would never be accepted till the end of time.
I know it's wrong but somehow I think rite now I am not living in a muslim country, the ppl are not muslim and if same sex relationship is culturally accepted by the ppl in this country.. who am I to judge them rite? so I think it's kinda sweet. so does this make me a hypocrite bastard? or somebody with skewered view? or am I breaching an aspect of my religion? or I am just a tolerant person? so confius::
.:Heidi Jones blogged on 12:17 PM:.
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